“When you have nothing else to hold onto, just let go” – Me
This week may prove to be one of the hardest of my entire life (which is pretty impressive because I’ve had some rough ones in the past). I found myself freaking out today over the fact that I have two finals coming up in the next few days and I am absolutely terrified. I’m not even sure where to start with studying for them and it’s truly scary. I feel helpless and overwhelmed.
I’m sure I’m going through what thousands upon thousands of students across the country are experiencing right now. Finals week sucks (to put it nicely). I am not a fan of taking tests and I get pretty bad anxiety from them. Not sure if this is a control issue or not. Or maybe it’s just the uncertainty of everything. What does the future hold after graduation? What am I going to do and where am I going to go? I’m not sure where the anxiety comes from but it’s no fun at all. I spend most of my time trying to calm myself down and maintaining the thought that everything will work out for the best. There’s no need for this amount of stress. Like seriously, ever.
I felt compelled to write this blog post for a few reasons. One, I wanted to distract myself from my own thoughts. Secondly, I wanted to remind everyone out there who is currently going through a difficult time, to keep moving forward. Stay present and take steps toward your future. Trust that you are where you need to be right at this very moment. Enjoy life and do the things that make you happy. Life is too short to worry all the time. Worrying is pointless anyhow. It’s usually never as bad as we imagine how it’s going to be.
We can never give up. We must always stay positive and reach for our dreams (whatever they may be). We are allowed to FEEL. Sometimes we get depressed or happy or anxious or angry. But you know what, it’s OKAY. We are all human. Stop trying to run away from yourself (it’s actually impossible to do). Embrace every part of you. The good and the bad. None of us are perfect. The paths we take in life are often curvy and sometimes include many detours. But we will get to our final destination. Remember, it’s truly about what we learn along the way. Life is a journey, enjoy it!
My faith and trust in the Universe is increasing in such an enormous way right now. All I have left is the hope that everything will be okay in the end. And I know it will be. But you can bet that I will be saying prayers every day until graduation (which is a week away!). I will get through this because I know that I’m only given what I’m strong enough to handle. I believe in myself and I know I am destined for great things. We just need to take one step at a time. That’s all that you can do.
In the words of Dory from Finding Nemo, “Just Keep Swimming!”
Love you all,