Wow, it sure has been a long time. I’m blown away thinking that I’ve been in Australia for 10 months already. That’s pretty wild. Okay so let me give you a run down on what’s been going on with my life…
I just finished my job as a barmaid in the Western Australia town called Mukinbudin (I worked 5 months there). I met a lot of awesome Australian locals and got to experience living in the Australian Outback, where it’s dry and red. I had a lot of challenges at this job but I learned a lot about myself in the process and I’ve grown in more ways than one. My biggest lesson was how important it is to communicate with others and also the power of forgiveness and non-judgment. Gossip can really hurt people and I saw how people can get wrapped up in the small town syndrome (I did as well and I’m not proud of it).
I’m currently on ROTTNEST ISLAND!!! I finally made it to see the quokkas 😀 In case you’re wondering what those are…see the picture above 🙂 Boy does it feel great to be back by the ocean!!
In less than a week…I’ll be in New Zealand. Yes you read that correctly! I’ve wanted to go to New Zealand for like 8 months now. So I decided about 2 months ago that I would buy a ticket and apply for the working/holiday visa over there (so that’s what I did). I’m so excited!!
I’m still single at the moment. No special guys have come into my life as of yet. But that’s okay because it will happen when the time is right 🙂
Okay, now to discuss where my head’s been at lately. I feel completely lost and confused with life and who I am. I understand that this is the first step in the process of finding yourself but it’s still frustrating. I came to Australia thinking that I would find myself instantly but I’ve been here 10 months and still feel like I have a long way to go. This road has by no means been an easy one. But I’m not ready to go home. I still have to learn to love myself completely with all my imperfections. I need to learn patience and how to react less to negativity. I want to be free and not care what other people think of me. I want to be in the right frame of mind when I meet my life partner so that I don’t miss him by being in a bad mood.
Have I figured everything out? Definitely not. Have I sometimes felt abandoned or forgotten about by my acquaintances, friends, and family back home…yes sometimes (but I know that I’m really not and I do have a tendency to disappear off the grid for a while and I apologize for that). I’m still on a journey. A LONG journey that started with taking this trip to Australia. I’m just working hard at accepting things the way they are and letting go of everything that doesn’t serve me well. Definitely easier said than done.
Come to think of it though…why do I work so hard? We cause ourselves more grief through the belief that we have to suffer in order to get what we want. But that’s a false truth. If we just allow ourselves to LET GO and let things work out the way that they’re supposed to without trying to be anything…then everything will work out in the end. Which reminds me of a famous quote by John Lennon: “Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.” I think he’s completely right about that. Just take whatever life throws at you and go with the flow. The key is to stop resisting life and just let it happen. This is one of my biggest lessons at the moment. The art of letting go and just being me.
I want to thank one of the barmaids from Muka, Lien, for helping me to remember how to have fun. We only spent about 5 days together but you will forever be my soul sister and you saved me more than you know by coming to work earlier than you had originally planned. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. You are an angel who answered my prayer 🙂
And to everyone else who has stuck with me, even after I don’t update in many months, I thank you. Thank you for always being there to support me and offer your love and advice. I really appreciate it and it’s all of you that keeps me going and gives me the strength and courage to push through my obstacles in life. You all are awesome and I send my love to each and every one of you 😀
Well, think of me when I’m leaving for New Zealand on Wednesday morning next week (or Tuesday evening for you Americans lol). This is the next step in my journey and I’m totally ready for it 🙂
Until next time…